20 (give or take few)
All I want is to get out of this one alive.
This time it’s different.
I want to respect myself.
finally.
sober the sasquatch
i have no limits when it come to booze. i need to establish limits.
My 25th year
so 2011 will be the 25th year that i’ve been in this world. For my entire life i’ve always thought this was the age i’d have it all figured out. I even thought i’d be married by now! But the plans i’ve always had for myself are not the plans that life had for me. I’m still not very comfortable in my own skin, and find something new everyday that i wish was different about my life. While this all sounds very depressing, something has recently awakened in me starting with a quote that I heard, it went “anything i’ve ever done that was ultimately worthwhile…initially scared me to death”. Hearing this set off sirens in my head. I don’t want to live my life in fear anymore. I don’t want to avoid people I know when I see them out because i don’t know what to talk about. I don’t want to not go on gogo auditions because i’m afraid i’ll look dumb. I don’t want to hide from my boss when he wants me to go up to a table and explain a dish to the customers. I don’t want to be so afraid that the guy I like will find someone else that I keep trying to stay in contact even though I know in my heart its over. This year i will learn to push myself and love myself.
Sarah
January 2nd will mark day 1 of 30 in which i will not be drinking. I’m excited/terrified of this. Drinking is a huge part of my social life, so i’m curious to see how it will go while living and working in the heart of hollywood. Here i go….
Out with the old…
Its dec 31st 2010 and I survived. moving twice. quitting a job. being poorer than I’ve ever been. loss of family. loss of friends. loss of purse (seems minuscule in comparison to the other things but it was a tough one). For a good while i let all of those things take me over. Negative thought is one of the most toxic things on earth and i’m so grateful that i had people in my life to pull me out of it. So to the skulski family, katy, my dad, lindsay, leslie, natasha, joser, and my sisters thank you for being the selfless, inspirational, loving people that you are and picking me up. LOVE YOU ALL! 2011 WILL BE THE BRIGHTEST YEAR YET!
Sarah
